What if I say NO?

NO is a powerful word.

But I seldom use it.

Not because I do like everything...

Maybe it's just my way of giving in...

But I also don't like the feeling of being boss around...

(Just like anyone for that matter).

So I might just say NO to you once in awhile...

Big God.

In Him I trust.

(so long fear and uncertainty)

A bit scared and uncertain

If I take this plunge now... Will it be worth it in the end?

Given that nothing is certain and my only control is myself.

Order of Relevance

We value a lot of things in life.

But first and foremost, we must know how to value ourselves.

You cannot and should not let others define who you are.

Take time to know yourself, take time to define who you are, acknowledge what you are capable of, and love your discovery!

Understanding oneself is a never-ending process. Learn and re-learn. Go and Forgo. Love and be loved.

New Cheese...

Hope things will turn out as what He wants it to be...

As I gaze to the surface of maze M, I wonder if this should be it.

=)

Weird dreams

For two straight nights, I have been having weird and bad dreams...

I don't like it.

I think my dreams talk about my fears...

(a) not providing enough for my family back home

(b) having unstable status at present

(c) and my trust-issue-filled relationship

It has been two weeks, but it feels like two months already.

(SIGHS)

An Email to Gala Darling

Hi Gala Darling,

I am not even sure if you would be able to read my email. I know you are a busy person and you probably have hundreds, if not thousands of email in your inbox everyday. I just want you to know that I admire your colorful life. You are brave enough to go for what you want to even changing your name in the process :) I love your creativity and the passion that you show towards your work. Basically, I admire you.

For that you deserve a....

BIG PINK HOORAY!!!!

Oh, I haven't introduce myself yet... I'm Joyce and I am about to turn 25 in a few months - and yes, I think Im in a quarter life crisis.

I moved to Singapore from Philippines (for 2 weeks now) in search of growth and career development. In my heart, I would love to pursue a career in designing but I have been working on my career in market research for about three years. I am helping my mom in terms of finances and for me to have a higher pay I think I have to stick with it (research) for 3 years more, or until my brother graduates from college (2013) :p

Don't get me wrong... I also like doing consumers studies - It's just that... I want to do more, I want to do creative things. I feel alive when I imagine a new product design for a furniture or an accessory. I want to create, I want to somehow immortalize myself with my creations. I want to create my own brand, I want to re-create myself.

I'm praying that God will lead me to the right direction. I am praying for the best.

Thanks Gala Darling! I guess I just need someone who I know understands me.

I pray that in time, doors will open for me to really pursue what my heart desires.

Cheers,

Joycee

Btw, this is Gala Darling:

http://galadarling.com/static/about-gala

No other way...

It has been a tough 2 weeks.

I want to cry, I want to scream.

But I cannot go back.

My family needs me.

And I have to do this for them.

Just in time...

God knows when and how.

My EPEC letter came in just in time.

When I feel a bit down and under.

Gosh... what's next? I don't know what :(

Who Moved My Cheese?

Haw realized he had been held captive by his own fear. Moving in a new direction had freed him.

Now he felt the cool breeze that was blowing in this part of the maze and it was refreshing. He took in some deep breaths and felt invigorated by the movement. Once he had gotten past his fear, it turned out to be more enjoyable than he once believed it could be.

Haw hadn't felt this way for a long time. He had almost forgotten how much fun it was.

To make things even better, Haw started to paint a picture in his mind. He saw himself in great realistic detail, sitting in the middle of a pile of all his favorite cheeses-from Cheddar to Brie! He saw himself eating the many cheeses he liked, and he enjoyed what he saw. Then he imagined how much he would enjoy all their great tastes.

The more clearly he saw the image of New Cheese, the more real it became, and the more he could sense that he was going to find it.

Complete the book! Read the pdf file:

http://www.yeshomebizpreview.com/Resources/WhoMovedMyCheese.pdf

Fear

Fear sets me in.

Fear of failure and fear of not making it through.

But I know God has His reasons for putting me here.

I live by my faith in His will and by my love for my family.

dub-dub-dub

My heart is a bit pounding... I kinda really want to nail this. But I'm afraid of two things:

(a) I might over do it OR

(b) I might under do it

Oh menh!!! I hope I can pin this one =)

Lord, please help!!! (Breath in, breath out)

Spiritual Blessing.

I am blessed with loving and caring friends and family.

I am thankful everyday that God has surrounded me with the best people and the best support system anyone could ever asked for. In all the stages of my life, God has been able to secure me. He is always working in me, providing me what I need, and assuring me that things will go as He planned and as He promised.

Right now I am blessed to know a lot of friends from different religions, and I am blessed to feel God's love in each one of them.

I believe in God and I have faith in Him and I am happy and blessed being with the Catholic Church together with my family. Amen!

It was the perfect kiss... but then... what?

Last week of June 2009, I met him at a bar. We accidentally bumped at each other and shared the perfect kiss. Yes, we were a match.

After that night, the chase began, and the chase went to several dates and more perfect kisses (e.g. friend's house, the bus station, and yes, there... at that place).

But then what?

No more. No other conversations. No complications. No strings attached. Nothing.

That was the set-up, that was the rule, his rule, that was his game and I like him that much that I agreed.

And as expected, I lost... I figured out I want more.

I want us...

I want my "happily ever after"....

But I guess a perfect kiss doesn't seal the deal after all...

Sweet evening conversations

I hope to have some sweet evening conversations with you before I go to sleep.

Since we are miles apart, I guess this is a basic need that I hope you will take time to give.

Sorry for being needy but I need to have this with you.

I want to know how your day went, I want you to know how my day was spent.

I hope this is not too much to ask.

Because if it is... I don't see the point of having US.